Stop

How do you walk away from something you don't want to leave? Something that you know would kill a piece of you inside to leave behind? But to stay is only to cause pain and destroy it even more slowly. Either way it's going to break, so why stay if doing so is only to watch it fall apart? It's hard to put back a puzzle that no longer fits and you can't force something that doesn't belong. I never wanted to learn to hate you, but how can I not when you make me hate myself? I wish you'd stop pretending. I don't need the lies and you don't need to live on memories.

Reminiscing

Mandlicht, eons have passed since the storm that is you first swept over my spirit yet joyfully I am ever lost in your current. Your name is my haven, your touch my heaven, your voice my earth, your eyes my sea. You are a firestorm, I am a forest. Consume me. I am summer, you are the sun. Make me real.  I am a jungle, you are the rain. Fill me. I am an angel, you are the maker. Only you can kill me now. I will not let them and when I go to war I go for you. Bless my spirit with yours. Amin mella lle. -Tia Teri-

Baby Monkies O.O

I had two dreams last night. Not sure which one came first. Anywho ^^ So in this one I had a baby girl. She was adorable, but the doctor said she had an iron deficiency and pulled out the thing of iron pills. I didn't think that made much sense so I asked him if I could just feed her foods with iron in it and he said no. She wasn't supposed to be eating food. >.>' Which really makes no sense 'cause I don't think she should be taking huge freaking pills personally.. but as I was saying.. I got all depressed about it and started walking back towards the car only to realize that I had left the baby back at the doctors office. I woke up as I was rushing back to go get her. Oddly enough, in the dream I was thinking to myself, "When the hell did I have a baby?"

The second dream had Tanya in it ^^ Haven't had a dream with her in awhile. I can't remember all the beginning details. We were playing dress up o__o Really cute clothes. I think they were white and pink. The shorts had all sorts of cute designs on them. Mostly of animals and rainbows I think.. >.> Shut up.. it was cute.. and it had a belt with a monkey buckle in the back and a tail that came off with a dangling monkey icon tied near the end of it. The rest of the outfit wasn't as memorable. They were actually her clothes we were going through. She had some really cute stuff. So she decides she wants to take pictures and I'm good with that, but she only wants to use the flash so makes the room really dark and now that I think about it o.o I think my little sister actually ended up walking through the room. Random. When the flash went off Tanya's face lit up like she had some glowey stuff on it x.x and her eyes glared white.. It was really, really creepy.. Reminded me of a demented clown. We only got two pictures off before I woke up. The second picture was of me chasing ball she'd thrown on all fours. o_o' It was... just plain weird.. The ball was red by the way. If that matters.