Ties That Bind

They're all around yet can't be seen by the naked eye, these ties that bind. They twine around your heart, strangling.. suffocating. Allowing you to bleed out as the wire bites into tender muscle. Like strings wielded by a master puppeteer they tug at your limbs, drawing you in different directions. Pulling you apart piece by piece until your left as nothing but a hollow shell...A dancer for their pleasure. A victim for their love, their hate and their pain.

Trickster

Should I show you the things that linger on the essence of my being I fear you would run and never look again. Perhaps though, I'll tell you anyway so you might get a hint of the trickster within. A devils delight. Obsessed and consumed by her own obsession she'll make you dance to the demons flute and you'll think an angel is she. Her illusion is so complete that even she must wonder. Her sin is her redemption. The only of it's kind. A selfish glutton that will give only to deceive. Receiving what she needs without ever asking. Her wants and desires, all for the taking, and they'll never know... Her puppets dance with strings unattached and hearts open and bleeding.

Lost

Are you lost?
..Yes.
Do you know where you're going?
..No, but I Know where I want to be.

Depressing Dream

It started out as a zombie dream but then ended up changing.. The people in this changed dream kept.. shifting.. Like one minute I knew they were one person but then that same person became someone else..Anyway.. A group of us went into the mountains I don't remember the whole trip but one woman fell into a gaping hole and before she fell I pulled her up.. I remember getting strange vibes off someone.. or everyone.. I'm not sure.. in the group.. then we were in a cabin and going to play cards, but another part of the group were on some smooth flat rocks to camp.. I was with them momentarily, but someone was missing and I looked off with a heavy heart only to accept the hand that a person reached out to me to share they're spot on the ground.. In the cabin I got mad before the game started, because they were ranting about rules and what not. I ended up throwing my deck into the air and letting it fall onto the people before storming out though I did end up going back for my shoes cause it was sunny out and I didn't wanna burn my feet. I specifically remember Lon being there. He left after me, but to the campground area. I knew he was going to find his woman cheating on him and somehow got the feeling that I was going to find the same thing with Pete. I'm not with him anymore, but apparently in my dream I was. Sure enough as I got down to the house as I passed our bedroom window he was screwing another woman.. I beat the door and said I was gonna kill her and my dad was standing behind me along with my little sister. I told her to go around to the windows because even though I couldn't see through the door I could.. see what was going on in the room. Dream knowing is awesome.. Anywho.. I did end up getting in and they were hidden behind/beneath the bed which was angled upward in some odd position.. He didn't say anything but she did. She said they were gonna die in a month and something about me not understanding.. At this point I completely shut down emotionally. I'm not sure what happened in the moments between, but I guess cops were there for some reason and one ended up dead. They freaked out and we all ended up back in the rocks with him laying down and us sitting over him. Getting a bit of feeling back I try to comfort him but then she ended up caressing his face so again I shut down and get up to leave. Almost back to the cabin I fell down sobbing, but forced myself to stand up and fight back the tears because I didn't want anyone to see me crying. I opened the cabin door twice, but shut it each time then just started wandering off. Two of the females there said it was too dark to climb up this really steep hill that was oddly rowed with grass. Not listening to them they decide to follow. I couldn't get up as far as them and actually ended up sliding back down. Part of me hoped I would just slide right off the mountains edge. Instead I stopped at Lon's feet who just got back himself. I already knew he had found his girl cheating as well. Those around us finally started to get suspicious about how we were feeling so I grabbed his arm and the dream twisted with my thoughts so we were walking along a stone path in a garden like area. He started talking, saying everything was gonna be okay and what not.. The normal things he says.. which.. only he would know and I'm not repeating any of it to anyone so yeah.. After waking up I remember.. I think there were four but there might have been five.. well.. I don't know what they were.. but each represented a person/choice of something or other.. I woke up very sad..

Life Dream

Last night in my dream I was heading home.. Mandii was coming with me for some reason. The trip was shorter then I remember, but it had a really eerie feeling about it. When it came to a stop I got off and there was another.. bus like vehicle. When I seen no one else got off I asked him where he was going. He said, "To wherever your meant to be." Then I ran back over to the other bus cause I could feel it was going to leave and I asked where it was heading. He said "To the same place just not as fast." I didn't know which to go to, but at the last moment I ended up going with the new driver. Mandii got up and was beating against the bus window and even though I tried gesturing for her to come with me the bus was already pulling away. When it disappeared I suddenly got twisted thoughts about the driver I was with. That he wasn't quite.. normal. Well, when he turned to smile at me.. >.< It looked like his damn face was stretched and he had giant bug eyes and some creepy grin weird looking expression. Lets just say he was totally batty. Instead of following normal protocol he jumped the sidewalk and raced happily along the road, weaving between cars and what not, barely avoiding some. At one point I remember seeing a little girl, the dream completely slowed at this point and focused completely on her, but she was running across a side street. She was wearing a little red dress and I believe there were balloons.. Following was another older girl.. I'm not sure if she was trying to stop her or just following.. She seemed.. more in a hurry. Pulling me from the distraction was the fact we almost got hit by a car. I remember thinking about my dad and how to get ahold of him and wondering if he was in town. On another street we drove by a house that.. was.. open to us.. Like.. the front walls were missing so we could look inside. There were shelves of stuffed animals closest to us and after passing those we could see inside and there was an empty chair with a blanket strewn across it and few other things. The house was cleared out, because the elderly woman living there had died. I remember her from another dream that I had before. I was taking care of her and helping her out.

I woke up shortly after that. I take it as a dream about choosing a life path.. In the dream I feel like I chose the more unstable one and chose to leave things/people behind. As the dream continued it was showing me things along the path I've taken thus far and were it was heading, but I never reached the end before waking up.