Conversation With Myself

Myself: So why won't you date them?
Me: They don't have what I'm looking for.
Myself: And what are you looking for?
Me: A fairytale.. and I know I probably shouldn't, but I'm going to hold my breath anyway.
Myself:: I guess some childhood dreams never die.
Me: Nah.. It's just that I had found it once and then I lost it. Ever since it seems like I've been chasing it down trying to find it again.

Dream

Had.. two dreams last night. I think it was two anyway, if not then it was one dream that switched in the middle. Either way in the first one there was this guy who I apparently was interested in and who was interested in me as well. He was somewhere near the pool that I was in. I actually ended up in the pool with my jacket on. I was trying to get it off as I jumped in, but didn't make it. Still got it off though. So I was swimming around for awhile and then Lonnie showed up. I guess he was upset about something. Either way him and this guy got in a "fight" of sorts. It was more like a verbal battle. Either way he ended up storming off and this upset me so I got out and chased him down, giving him a hug. He was all tense at first, but in the end he relaxed and hugged me back.
The second dream was about Gordon. I don't remember most of the details, but he was upset too. Not entirely sure about what, but he o__o tried choking my little sister. That was kinda weird. I finally got fed up with him and ended up attacking him actually. Well, not really trying to hurt him, just hold him down and make him listen to me. Mm.. Can't really remember much of this, but we ended up in a room sitting on different pieces of furniture and talking about.. something.. and spying on whoever was outside the window x.x'