Surrender

Could I surrender and give it all away once more? Could I take that last step beyond fear to embrace the chance of what could be? Could I shed paranoia and doubt and accept words once considered lies? Or should I accept that it is better to turn away? To hold it all in? To keep going down this path of self-induced loneliness? How easy it would be to simply give in. To let all the emotion I've been keeping pent up to spill over and show you how it feels to be the center of a world. Instead I hold myself back and spread myself thin. Distracting myself with many and claiming for myself none. Refusing to give that last little piece. Maybe I'm just waiting for that right moment.. That one reason to finally surrender.